Artifact

Got a text from Lauren Monday evening…. I’m healthy! =)…

Praise God!!!!!

I can’t explain the joy and relief I felt to know that my fiancée was going to be ok. The spot that showed up on her CT scan ended up being an Artifact (some type of glitch in the scan).

I woke up this morning with a HUGE smile on my face… my Oatmeal and Craisens breakfast never tasted so good before.

How often I can forget the simplest verses 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18. I dove into the word today with a new found joy… A reminder that my joy and peace should always be anchored in Christ.

Trust

I got engaged one month ago… I know, I know… we didn’t see anything on your blog. To me it really didn’t seem real for the first two weeks. It was kind of like being caught up in this amazing fantasy engaged to this amazing, beautiful, Godly woman. About two weeks ago the reality set in, I’m going to be married in five months. Suddenly the fear and anxiety set in… am I going to be a good husband, how can I take care of her physically / spiritually when I can barely take care of myself, finances, family relationships, and on and on. I prayed about it constantly, however the fear and anxiety just stuck with me. I wasn’t sleeping; I wasn’t tending to my fiancée like I should. When I prayed I didn’t really expect God to follow through in my heart (I know that sounds bad, but it’s true). Friday evening Lauren (my beautiful fiancée) called me. She has been struggling with headaches for about a year now and went in to get a CT scan just as a precaution. She was balling when she called, I could feel the tension and anxiety in her voice. She informed me that there was a complication with her CT result, something about a spot in her brain that they aren’t sure about and that they would need to run more tests. We immediately prayed together, I tried to comfort her the best I could. After getting off the phone I realized how insignificant my worries for the past two weeks were. I came to the realization of how quickly I am to forget God’s sovereignty. There isn’t anything I can do to take care of Lauren, she’s totally in God’s hands. That Sunday we studied cynical prayer and how prevalent it is in today’s society. I realized how cynical my prayers had been in the past two weeks. How often do we truly believe what we pray is going to happen? It’s seems so hard for us to let that knowledge that we are filled with the Holy Spirit and that our prayers have power travel the twelve inches from our head to our heats. We went over James 1:5-8 and it made me realize how small my faith really is.

God is Love

Sometimes when I pick up my Bible Gods word just wrecks me. As if a hand jumps out and slaps me in the face. Read 1 John 4:13-21 this morning, always amazes me how sharp Gods words can be. I've been horrible at loving others lately, I mean just awful. I don't know why I can't be patient with others when God has been so patient with me.